heading out

The weekend with the MIL went pretty well considering. I'm not sure if it was the fact that she was feeling more and more pain as the weekend progressed or it was just us, but she was getting more and more judgemental as the time went on. So by the time they left on Monday, I heaved a sigh of relief, my kids ran for the TV (I swear we're not actually addicted!) and Steve went for a beer.

The next day we went for our 20 wk ultrasound. We were really disappointed. I mean I know it's our 4th and all, but it's still a super special event. So when the technician didn't let Steve come in we were a little miffed. And when he was finally allowed in and we were given a "run thru" again we were disappointed. Not at all like the ultrasounds we had in PA. The guy was like "here's the head, the heart and the feet." That was it. The tech we had with Kez was awesome. She went over every little inch of her and we could marvel at her little toes and fingers! It was the coolest thing! This was so not. Apparently it's the law here. Yeah....whatever.

But then we were off to Edmonton to celebrate out 8th wedding anniversary. Nothing says I Love You like going to see Transformers 2 followed by a trip to IKEA and finally steak at The Keg. My only complaint of the three was that we were at The Keg when the doors opened at 4, and there was still a 10 minute wait. WHAT?! You just opened for pete's sake! But whatever, the food was delicious and even tho' my daquiri was a virgin, it still felt good to drink again! :o)

So now in a few days the kids and I embark on our holiday. Of the 3 weeks we'll be gone, Steve will join us for 3 days. So I plan on spending those 3 days relaxing and enjoying his company. It totally sucks that he can't get time off this summer, but I'm already looking forward to having him around for 9 months after the baby is born. Of course, come Jan/Feb I'll probably be so ready to kick him out back to work! But we'll see.

And so I'm finishing up some laundry, packing up bags and coolers for our 3 days camp trip, then it's off to Sk for a whirlwind trip to visit my side of the family. I just hope Arborfield knows what's coming!!

See ya on the flip side!

stress

Last Saturday we were at the kids soccer tournament when a woman showed up with 2 little chocolate lab puppies. She said she had 9 of them at home that she was trying to get rid of...would we want one? Of course I would! I'm thinking. But in reality I know there's no way of convincing Steve. So a few hours later, Kez is completely entranced by these puppies and Steve is thinking...hmmm...maybe. So thinking they're "free" (she said "giving away") we went over to ask a few questions. Turns out they're $400!!! I'm like WHAT??!! And I'm sorry if you've paid this much for a dog in the past or think it's okay, but I...do....not. I think it's insane to charge people that much money for a dog just b'cos it has some papers. Whoop de doo!! And who in their right mind would pay that much $$ for a dog!? I mean really?? I can think of a whole crap load of stuff I'd rather spend $400 on than a dog.

So anyway needless to say we didn't get THAT puppy. :o)

Since I had Steve agreeing to get a puppy I knew I had to act fast if we were actually going to get one. So as luck would have it, that same day was the city's pioneer days parade. And one of the "floats" were puppies from the local pound. So I phoned around and yes they had 2 females left and yes they were open till 5 pm. So we hauled everyone over to the pound to look at the puppies and there was one there with a red collar that let the girls moosh her face in a million different directions and wouldn't leave the fence until the kids did. So we agreed that if the puppy was still there early next week we would get it.

Of course, leaving a person to think over their decisions over a weekend is never a good thing.

Come Tuesday the girls pleaded and I negotiated and now we have a puppy.

How quickly the "puppy love" can fade. Now I'm thinking I made a huge mistake. Maybe we're just not ready. We're going on a quick camp trip in a few weeks and trying to find a place for one dog, let alone a dog and a new puppy will be a challenge. So far Gus is NOT pleased with the new puppy and I find myself wondering if we really deserve another animal to look after.

So that's one stress.

Then the MIL is coming this weekend. I don't know when and not sure for how long, but she's coming. We've come to realize that we just can't talk about ANYTHING with her. Not school, music, movies, kids activities, holidays, church, etc. There's really quite a list. And Steve is on the cleaning wrampage b'cos she went over to his brothers house on Father's Day and they were "wowed" (which is bizarre b'cos they just starting speaking to each other after a stupid 7 month hiatus over a stupid, trivial dispute) so now Steve feels like he has to live up to that or something, and of course I'm like, who gives a flying duck? Every time she comes I secretly try to think of different scenerios that would cause us to freak and kick them out of our house and never to come back again. Sigh - unfortunately what a relief that would be!! So I'm stressing over that. We got tonnes of activities lined up for this weekend, with friends visiting and wind-up BBQ's and I just don't want them to come with us.

So here's to stressful family, summer holidays, and puppies!!!

one pants size down

I love going to the doctor and having them tell you that you are in fact, actually loosing a few pounds. There's nothing greater, especially when a few minutes later, he says the baby is measuring bigger than "normal". And what is normal anyway? They said Keziah was measuring large too before I had her and she wound up being my smallest! So I don't really put any...what's the word?...I have no idea, but hopefully you know what I mean...in what they say.

Then this morning I had to return a pair of maternity shorts for a size smaller. There is no greater way to begin a morning!

stupid thing

So the stupid thing is ...

...well I mean there are quite a few "stupid things" in my life lately. I could say the fact that I'm loosing a few pounds here and there, while still having more fat than baby bump around my middle, and the baby already registering as "large" is kinda stupid. The fact that I LOVE eating KFC poutine even tho' I know it's like crap...and it's $4.50 to boot and soooo "good" for me! And I have this blog and never use it. Altho' today I felt a yearning, which is ridiculous 'cos look at what I'm writing about?

a new age

Tomorrow my baby turns 2. I can't believe she's 2. So much has happened in those 2 years that they seem like they've flown right by. And I find myself being reminiscent (like I seem to be alot these days...must be the air here or something). We'd like another baby, and I was thinking tonite, while a 4th is nowhere on the horizon yet, I'm really going to miss that whole stage. And it wouldn't be that bad to keep going...would it? If the idea is even a slight notion...does that mean you're not done having kids? I don't even like being pregnant! If it's at all possible to feel like a whole universe, that pretty much sums up how I feel pregnant. A whale just isn't big enough.

I remember a friend of mine had her 4th baby last year and she knew it was going to be her last one. So she tried to treasure every moment of that pregnancy. A friend of mine now is pregnant, and just shared some photos of her little bump. It made me smile and cry at the same time.

And it's not that I regret anything I did or didn't do to remember the previous 3 pregnancy's, but this next time (Lord willing) I will love it that little bit more, and take a few more whalish pictures, and enjoy the bone cracking and the constant urination. I will thank God everyday for that little miracle.

But for now, I will treasure the joys I have. Including this little angel!



Happy Birthday Keziah!

(and for the record, that's shaving cream on her face!)

One week

Yesterday I saw this movie. The movie itself was okay. I think the dying, must go on adventure thing has been overdone. But the thing that I LOVED about it, was that it's Canadian. From the rolling of a Tim's cup, to the idea of biking across Canada for a case of beer with a friend, to the music. It wreaked Canada. I. loved. it.

You can check out the official site here. And while your at it, submit a prairie picture....Saskatchewan isn't even on the map! And we all know how beautiful it is!

Revelation

The idea is this: set your Ipod/mp3 player/iTunes/Windows Media Player/what have you on “shuffle” and then answer each question with the various songs that come up as you skip through. You cannot cheat: the first song goes with the first question; the second, with the second; and so on. The last song is to be the title of the post.

The Meme (comments in italics)

1.What do your friends say about you? The Pretender - Foo Fighters
ha ha...ha....ha...really?

2.How would your coworkers describe you? Love Remains the Same - Gavin Rosdale
not bad, I'll take that as steady and unchanging...

3.How would you describe yourself? What I've Done - Linkin' Park
should be what have I done?

4.What do you like in a romantic partner? Slow Down - Third Day
oh yeah...

5.How do you feel today? Shake It - Metro Station
shaken

6.What is your life’s purpose? Hard Sun - Eddie Vedder

7.What is your motto? give love - Third Day
I'll agree with that!

8. What do you think about the most? Sing Praises - Third Day
I wish!

9. What are you going to do on your next vacation? one of these things first - Nick Drake
true true

10.What do you think of your first love/date? Hell Ya - Rev Theory
haha...with my husband? yes. First date? no.

11. What is your life story? stay home - self
but isn't that every SAHM's?

12. What did you do yesterday? I just Don't Think I'll Ever Get Over You - Colin Hay

13. What do you think of when you see the person you like/love? My Beloved Monster - Eels
lol!! I love it!!

14. What describes your wedding? take it all - Third Day
think clean!

15. What will they play at your funeral? Full Moon - The Black Ghosts

16. What is your obsession? When You're Gone - Avril Lavigne

17. What is your biggest fear? Wire - Third Day

18. What is your biggest secret? Semi- Charmed Life - Third Eye Blind
yes that's right...I'm a druggie....shhhh...don't tell my husband!

19. What is your biggest turn-on? A Long December - Counting Crows
Matthias was born in September...

20. How do you describe your friends? Innocent - Third Day

21. What would you do with a million dollars? Ballad of The Beaconsfield Miners - Foo Fighters
I would get someone to teach me how to play this song!

22. What is your opinion of sex? caring is creepy -the shins

23. What is your biggest regret? only living boy in New York - Simon and Garfunkel

24. What would you rather be doing right now? Brown Eyed Girl - Van Morrison
*cough cough* uh no.

25. What is your biggest turn off? i will always be true - Third Day
exact opposite actually

26. How do you start your morning? Let it Die - Foo Fighters
on occasion

27. What Describes your birth? Decode - Paramore

28. What is a typical weekend for you? Rockin' The Suburbs - Ben Folds Five
oh yeah baby!!

29. What do you do at work? Desire - U2
on days off maybe...

30. How would your significant other describe you? blue eyes - cary brothers
better not be!

31. How would your parents describe you? Times Like These - Foo Fighters
haha, yes I was a bit of a problem...

32. What do you think about in the bathroom? Everything - Micheal Buble
agreed!

33. What would be a good theme song to play whenever you walk into a room? Into the Fire - Sarah McLachlan

34. How do you like to end your day before bed? I Caught Myself - Paramore

35. What will you post this list as? Revelation - Third Day

I had a dream...

Last night I was full of dreams. Something that doesn't happen very often, at least not that I remember. In one of them I was lucky enough to have the Jolie-Pitts come for a sleep over. It was only Brad, Angie and the 4 oldest, but still exciting nonetheless. The only weird thing was that I was still living with my parents and my Uncle Gary was still alive (he died back in '96). It was cool 'cos we made Brad sleep on the couch.

Yeah...so anyway...I've also decided to give up my Twilight books for lent. You may be thinking, big deal? Well it is a big deal and I hope that with my new "free time" I'll be able to get my focus back on God...and if that means reading the Bible while doing my "business" so be it!

And you may be happy to know that I've managed to wash the walls on my top 2 floors (if you don't know, I live in a 4 level split). So half done! Yay for me! Now to accomplish the rest of my "to do" list...

The Disiduata

Last week I was tearing the house apart looking for my chord book, which I didn't find, but I found a bunch of quotes and things that I had written out into a notebook. One of them was "The Disiduata". I have no idea where this came from but a long time ago I read it somewhere enough to ask whoever owned it to photocopy it for me (there was a note from the owner) and send it to me. And so for your reading enjoyment...

Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and ignorant; they too have their story. If you compare yourself with other, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is perennial as the grass. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labours and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul. With all it's sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.

hmmmm....

I've been feeling kinda blah lately. I'm going to chalk that up to mid-winter blues. And I know that everyone around here is feeling it too. Matt said, again, this morning how he can't wait for summer...or at least till it's warmer so he doesn't have to wear all his "winter junk" anymore! I couldn't agree more. And so while the snow is continuing to fall outside, I'm thinking some sort of change is in order. I need a project or something to keep me going till spring. A friend of mine said that she's going to start her spring cleaning...one room at a time. While that doesn't sound nearly as appetizing as say...painting a mural or going on a fan-tabulous trip somewhere...it should keep me busy doing something for awhile. I don't think the walls have ever been washed in this house and that gives me the creeps. I'm surprised I've lived with it this long. And while I don't know if I'll be able to actually do the one room at a time thing (once started I tend to go hardcore) I'm going to give 'er a try.

And I'm determined to learn how to play this song on guitar. I found the chords and found out how to play the chords (it's slowly coming back to me) so in theory it should only take me...oh, I'd say a month or so.

And I finally finished my crochet cap for Kez, now I've started a matching one for Callah.

And I just need some primer then I can start painting the spare room for Matthias' "big move"...but there's no real rush for this as a)I'm still not prego (and yes we're trying) and b)it's more a 7th birthday surprise for the boy than anything.

Of course I could do the classic "new haircut" kind of thing. But I'm seriously trying to grow it out long again, and it's taking forever.

So I guess there's really lots to do, I just need to put down my book (and yes, I'm reading the series again) and get doing.

have you seen this?

I can see my girls doing this... check it out.

cup of tea

This is cute....

One day my mother was out and my dad was in charge of me.

I was maybe 2 1/2 years old. Someone had given me a little 'tea set' as a gift and it was one of my favorite toys.

Daddy was in the living room engrossed in the evening news when I brought Daddy a little cup of 'tea', which was just water. After several cups of tea and lots of praise for such yummy tea, my Mom came home.

My Dad made her wait in the living room to watch me bring him a cup of tea, because it was 'just the cutest thing!' My Mom waited, and sure enough, here I come down the hall with a cup of tea for Daddy and she watches him drink it up.

Then she says, (as only a mother would know...)


"Did it ever occur to you that the only place she can reach to get water is the toilet?"

obsessions

I'm not even sure if that's the right word for what I'm thinking of, but it seems to fit more than anything else my brain can come up with at this time.

There are lots of things that I love. That I'm passionate about. One of them sadly, are movies. ( Hmmm...maybe this is something I should totally give up for lent!) I watch alot of movies. Luckily I don't live in PA anymore (or near any other major centre with a new Shoppers Drug Mart) where movies are only $0.99. Most movies are worth that much, altho Legally Blonde 2 is not one of them! And so my movie watching has dwindled some since coming here but I still `do keep ontop of the latest releases. I've also given up horror flicks. Growing up for some reason, I had a thing for cheesy horror. And it didn't really bother me until I reached my early 20's when suddenly I realized they were just bad. Nothing about them was entertaining or worthy of my time. So I stopped. Have you ever strolled thru a movie store and noticed how many cheesy horror flicks there are out there? It's sad that they're so popular. Altho' I will admit I have seen the first 4 SAW movies. And we haven't been to the theatre lots here 'cos a). the selection here in Wetaskiwin is sub par (altho' the theatre itself is pretty good!) and b). movies in Edmonton cost $12.50.

Anyway so lately I've seen:
Punisher: War Zone - good I guess if you like guns. I was surprised that Steve knew what the majority of them were called. Not one of my favourites altho' I was with Steve so I won't complain!

Australia - who can argue with Hugh Jackman? I thought it was good. A "Gone with the Wind" type epic (with cheesy pastels and hockey lines). I would see it again. Steve wasn't too keen on it altho' he liked the fact that the actors actually got dirty.

Then came Twilight and I'll come back to that.

Ummm...what else did I see? Death Race (which had some awesome explosions) and we just saw Gran Torino last weekend (which was brilliant. Steve keeps making "Clint Eastwood grimaces". It's kinda getting annoying).

and on video: the duchess (at first I didn't think Keira Knightly could pull off being a mother of 3 kids, but I was wrong. She did a great job!) and righteous kill (didn't like it as much as I was hoping I would, what with 2 great actors like DeNiro and Pacino) and definately maybe (cute. I was a bit worried in the first 7 minutes, but in typical Ryan Reynolds fashion, it turned enjoyable and worth the $6 rental) and open season 2 (cute and funny, not as good as the original since Kutcher and Lawrence didn't return) and vicky cristina barcelona (hmmm...brilliant movie as far as Woody Allen is concerned. Penelope Cruz was amazing and who can't love Javier Bardem?) and transsiberian (this was a smart rental. Good plot, good actors, good all around) and space chimps ( my kids loved it and I enjoyed it too!) and igor (too dark, in my opinion, for a young kids movie) and felon (again, took a risk renting it and was pleasantly surprised. Good film!) and burn after reading (too much sex for my liking) and ghost town ( AWESOME! we loved it!) and appaloosa (I thought Renee Z. totally killed the movie. It had such potential with Mortenson and Harris only to be destroyed by the stupid "girl" storyline. Ugh. I was disappointed. But as far as westerns go, Steve thought it was good) and eagle eye (good entertainment) and nights in rodanthe (lame...can't believe I saw this one in the theatre...) and quantum of solace (awesome again. MUST SEE in the theatre. Danial Cragg will do Bond just fine) .

So anyway, going back to Twilight. I couldn't believe all the hype this movie was getting. I thought it was ridiculous and absurd. Teenage girls everywhere were talking about how they couldn't wait to see the movie and how they had read the books over and over again. I would roll my eyes everytime I heard someone say that.

That was until I saw the movie. I went out of curiousity on a weekend matinee (so I didn't have to spend more than $5) and LOVED IT. I couldn't believe it! I went again the next night. And again the following weekend. I was IN LOVE with this movie. And then it became a sort of obsession. I had to get more. So I went to the library and reserved the 4 books in the series so that I could read them. I was like 140 or so on the waiting list. This would take forever. At S'Store one day I saw the first book and bought it. I stayed up till 4 am that night reading it. Then amazingly the library called and had the 2nd book, New Moon available for me. I stayed up till 3 am reading that. A few weeks later, Steve and I went into Edmonton and I bought the 3rd and 4th books, Eclipse and Breaking Dawn. I stayed up later than I should've reading those. It was all I could do and think about....like a zombie....my mantra was MUST READ BOOKS. It was ridiculous. I admit that. It's totally absurd!! And then my brother burnt me a copy of the movie and mailed it to me. To be fair, I watched it steadily for 2 days then and now, I only watch it while working out. Call it an insentive! I don't know what it is about this series! Since then, in early December I've read all 4 of the books at least 6 times thru. And I know there are WAY MORE things that I could be doing with my time, creative things, productive things, many many things. But like I said, I just don't know what it is that draws me again and again. It's just good! :) Maybe it's the love story that I find so overpowering. Maybe it's the fact that it's actually clean. I made my parents watch it back in December and my Mom was impressed by how clean it was. She thought it would be much worse. No swearing, so sex. The author, Stephenie Meyer, grew up Mormon and she says it's hard to shake that influence off in her writing. You find out later in the books *SPOILER ALERT* that Edward (the vampire) won't sleep with Bella (the human) until they're married.

Anyway, so now I'm trying to move on. It's totally ridiculous, and I have to tell myself NOT to spend all my "free" time reading and instead do other things. The lure is still there, but it's slowly diminishing.

ouch. Matthias just shot me with a nerf gun. He's so dead later. What a nutball.

Now I've lost what I was going to say. Knowing now how ridiculous I am with this...Oh wait! I remember. Alot of critics are comparing J.K.Rowling and Harry Potter to Stephenie Meyer and Twilight. While I haven't actually read any Potter books, I've seen the movies. And if I had a choice of showing my kids one or the other, I'd have to go with Twilight. Harry Potter scares me. He really does.

There now. I've managed to waste a few minutes of your time by allowing you to read this gibberish, so perhaps it's better if we all go do something more productive with our time....where did I put that book?

something crunchy

Yesterday we ran out of sugar. The kids keep complaining that there's no dessert. So I used the little I had left (with a little brown sugar added) to make cookies. I didn't notice the time I started, so by the time I got them in the oven I had to go pick the boy up from school. I handed the timer to Callah and told her to tell Dad that in 5 minutes the cookies would be ready.

30 mins later I came home and saw smoke rising from the oven the timer on the oven going wild. I yelled "STEVE!!!" Immediately he runs up the stairs into the kitchen and says sorry as I pulled the charcoal cookies from the oven.

So that attempt was out the window.

Today we decided to make rice krispie squares. Simple enough. And yet as I started to chew off the excess marshmallow from the spatula I noticed it was a bit crunchy. And that's when I noticed that the end of the spatula had been melted and broken off.

So we'll see what happens. And I think I should basically stop baking ANYTHING for the next few days just to be safe.

tiddlywinks

ok so every now and then I think about blogging again. I don't usually have anything important to say, but once in a blue moon my brain does think of something creative.

And othertimes, with Kez crawling all over me and Callah continually telling me that she's hungry (and yes, I DO feed her!) I just want someone else to talk to. And during those times, this seems like the easiest outlet for one sided conversations.

See now...does that even make any sense? Maybe I shouldn't resurrect the dead.

But whatever.

I was merely just wallowing in my own self pity this morning at the thought of how easily it is for a person to be forgotten. It's like you spend years making and working on relationships with people, that maybe weren't as good as you thought they were - the relationships I mean- b'cos suddenly you leave and then it's like you're forgotten. You rarely, if ever, hear from these relationships and if you do, it's usually b'cos they want something, or need a place to stay as they pass thru your new location. And thinking of that, it makes me wonder if that's where relationships are today. Are we so busy in our own lives that it's too much of a hassle for a quick hello? Or do we just make the time for those who really matter. Meanwhile forgetting all those who might actually need- no crave- a friendly "hello" once in awhile too?

Anyway, like I said, I'm just feeling a little....agitated.

How sad...my first post in months and it's completely negative.

c'est fini

Ever since we moved here I just haven't felt right. And with that feeling comes a huge lack of motivation to do anything. I've always wondered about this whole blogging thing. Who am I? that I should be so interesting or unique that people would want to read about my life? No one really. It did make me feel good to think that people might stop by to read it now and then.

Anyway, I just feel that this is one more thing that I feel like I should be doing and not really wanting to. So until things feel better around here and personally, I will stop writing. And really, it's not like I have been writing lately anyway. I really liked what Cody said about leaving his...(roughly) we busy ourselves with so much. We should be trying to simplify it. And this blog is just something that isn't necessary right now.

So this is it.

I wish you all the best. I will continue reading the many blogs of friends and family out there.
Keep in touch!

Cheers!

wordless wednesday

and so it begins...

31

Today Steve-o turns the big 31. I was thinking about this yesterday. 31 - seems so old. 30 was a huge number to hit, and now it's over. It's like you're officially an adult. We were talking the other day and with Matthias going into Beavers, we looked at each other and said, "we're officially parents." Like we weren't before? It takes being involved in something, parent meetings and fundraisers to be a parent?

Anyway, I'll go way off topic here.


Happy Birthday Cowboy! Hope you have a good sleep and a quiet nite!

Quotable Monday

"I sound my barbaric yawp over the roofs of the world. " Walt Whitman

dreaming

Last night Steve was scheduled to get off at 5. He got home shortly after 11:30 pm. It was a long night.

And rarely a person to remember her dreams. Last night I dreamt I moved to Australia and married Gerard Butler. Hmmm...wonder if that means anything? ;o)